07 October 2007

Negativity

I've been blogging for years now, and through the course of these years I've learned to develop a thick skin when it comes to dealing with messages/emails that are hateful in nature. I am aware that there are people who do not agree with my sexuality and lifestyle but I don't think that gives them the right to send me messages with hateful terms such as; idiot, asshole, shithead, slut, etc. I've been getting a lot of these types of messages lately. I wonder why? Iniistorbo nila ako. Mga antipatika!!!! Hahaha!
There are also gay men who criticize the sound of my voice so condescendingly. What disappoints me the most is that majority of these gay men are Filipinos like me. I've corresponded with people from other countries and they didn't seem to have any problems regarding the way I speak. It's my fellow Filipino gay brothers who seem to have an "issue" with it. They say that it's a shame that my voice is too gay or soft. They (Filipino homosexual critics) usually refer to themselves as "bisexuals" even though they do not have sex with women. Very confusing! Naloko ako! Hehe! Well, as for me...I am gay and I don't have any intentions of changing the way that I am just to seek other people's approval or meet other people's "standards" with regards to what they believe is attractive. I've done that before and I only ended up feeling miserable, insecure, and shallow.
I don't wish to become a "lemming", a follower...always trying to conform & please everyone. And hindi yata bagay sa akin magsalita ng mga katagang "bro", "dude", "pre", "pare".....pare...pakiss naman pare....Hahaha! Ayokong masyadong maging paminta. 1/4 paminta lang. Hahaha! I just want to be me and I'll continue to be the way that I am as long as the manner in which I live my life doesn't intentionally hurt or offend others in the process. There's already a lot of things negative in this world and I don't wish to be a part of that :-)



PS

I have nothing against bisexuals and pamintas ok?
I even had a relationship with one in the past
Ayoko lang ng overly paminta. They look too stiff ;-)

13 comments:

robert said...

why care for those people?for as long as you are happy and contented with your life and sexuality,who cares?don't mind them,inggit lang ang mga yun.don't ruin your peacefulness with those negativity.just accept that you can't please everybody and continue being a peaceful,happy and loving "soul."life is too short to entertain those kind of negative comments.but don't you realized na dumarami na ang fans mo?hahaha.at least may nagbabasa ng blogspot mo,di ba.'la lang magawa ang mga yun.by the way,i'm your fan too.it's robert here.God's Peace,my good wishes and pure feelings.ingat and be happy!

robert said...

lam mo?ang cute mo pa rin kahit asar ka!kita mo naman pic mo,you made a statement!hahaha.still,robert here.tawanan mo na lang ang mga taong nang-aasar sa'yo.maybe what they have is a miserable life,kaya naghahanap ng damay.just don't make a reaction at baka mahatak ka nila.

someone far far away said...

It takes courage and talent to write as you do. I wonder how much courage and talent it takes to write “asshole” behind the anonymity of a computer monitor. I like your voice, your personality and your talent for writing. I have to tell you mate, you’re far from perfect...but I do admire your courage. You can send me a cheque for writing the above later.

Toyo said...

thanks for the comments. i always appreciate messages and criticisms that are constructive. have a nice day/evening :-)

Anonymous said...

You have gayish comments. I think you are fun to be with.

Anonymous said...

Everytime I have the chance to surf the net, I always visit your blog because I find your posts worthwhile to read.
The most important thing is that your happy of being yourself and you make others happy as well, through your blog.
Thank you for your wonderful blog.

'ralph philippe said...

hindi ka na masyadong nagpopost ngayon... nakakabitin!!!!!!!! get well soon pala

Anonymous said...

I happen to think your voice is sexy.

Anonymous said...

Hi,
First time visiting your blog. I hope you don't take the negative comments too seriously. Some adults act like immature children, so it's best to think of them that way. People have their limitations -- you wouldn't expect a 12 year old to act like a twenty-five year old, right? The same concept can be applied to certain adults.
-Jeremy

Toyo said...

thanks for the messages guys. have a wonderful weekend :-)

aimiff said...
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Toyo said...

amen!

Russ said...

hahah thats an awesome blog. yea dont mind them, they r just people who just cant do anything with thier dull, pathetic lives. peace out kuya rey


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