06 September 2008

Past

I was tinkering with my Yahoo Messenger yesterday & I stumbled upon its "Message Archive" feature. It's only then that I realized that I had turned on its "save conversations". I had fun reading the transcripts of chat sessions I did with my friends and online buddies most of which were dated back as far as 2004...until I got to read the archive of one particular person...my ex. I couldn't believe how determined I was in making that relationship work. I also couldn't believe the emotional rollercoaster I've gotten myself into in that relationship lasting more than 2 years. I didn't know what to feel upon going through that archive. I was happy, but for the most part, I was sad. The past coming back to haunt me.

Ryan (my bf) told me to let go. I told him I've already moved on. I wouldn't be in a relationship with Ryan if I haven't moved on. I wouldn't have introduced him to my family if I haven't moved on and I plan to move on together with Ryan for a long time UNLESS he does something really offensive. If so, I'll drop an anvil on his family jewels while he sleeps. Hahaha! Kidding! Babe, pag sinaktan mo ang busilak kong puso susumbong kita sa pamilya & umm...aapat kong loyal na blog readers. Bigla ka na lang mawawala. Lagot ka! LOL! Hahaha!
I bear no anger nor hatred towards my ex. I've learned a lot from my relationship with him & I wish him well in his life wherever he may be.
I'm only posting my past as a small reminder towards myself as to what I should and should not do in my present & in my future.

10 comments:

terry said...

we often learn more from peoples actions than we do from their words.

take care and stay happy Rey

Anonymous said...

well, sweetie, we all have our own past and no matter how bad or bitter it may had been, what's important is that we learn from them. as my mentor used to say, forget the past. live today and plan for the future. i believe we all deserve the best in this world, don't you agree? ; )

Anonymous said...

it is true, Rey, we always learn from our experiences. the important thing is not to put ourselves in the same situation, if possible. it drives me crazy when i see people getting into the same trap as if they've never experienced it before.

R

greg said...

Ryan seems to be a good guy... he'd better be faithful or else many vultures are on the look-out to snatch you anytime! It's nice to be nostalgic of the past... It somehow makes you aware of who you are at present. You take care, Rey!

Greg

Count me in among your loyal blog readers.... 5 na kami! Yehey....

Toyo said...

thanks for the comments, i appreciate them :-)

Anonymous said...

Hey I found your blog from g4m..

very intereseting.. nabasa ko lahat ng story.

More power.. I'll be your loyal reader! 6 na kami yehey!

Anonymous said...

i almost shed tears reading your 9/6/08 post. it brought back loving memories. we had a good two +-year run. i wish things had been different. i'm truly sorry for the emotional pains i caused you; you know i didn't mean any of this to happen. on a brighter side, you and ryan found love for each other, and i couldn't be happier for both of you. i wish you both all the best and coninuted happiness!

Anonymous said...

btw, all the comments written here make good sense. you have a great support system going on, rey. maraming salamat po!

sincerely,
rey's ex who still remains a good friend

Toyo said...

if you are who i think you are, i want to say that i bear no ill feelings towards you. i never had.

but if the person who made these last 2 comments, was just a passerby playing with my head, well...i don't know what to say....

Anonymous said...

it's me and no one's playing with your head. glad to know that you had no ill feelings towards me. all the best to you and ryan!