23 October 2007

Cycle

My lola (grandma) passed away at the age of 92 last Saturday (the 20th of Oct.) All of my lolas are in heaven now. It was really painful especially seeing my father cry over the passing of his mother. Fathers are supposed to represent strength in the family...I couldn't help but cry whenever I see my father cry. Even the thought of him crying, makes me cry. These are one of the moments I wished I had a partner comforting me...but I do not. So I have to toughen myself up again like I did when my other lola passed away 2 years ago. There were moments I felt really down though because everybody else had their partners to comfort them throughout this ordeal. My parents have each other, my sisters have their husbands and boyfriend. I had none. Anyway, there's a saying "pain builds up a person's character." Ayoko naman masyadong magpakalungkot, baka mainis si lola sa kaka-emote ko. Baka multohin niya ako at sabunutan :-)

One of my fondest memories of lola took place when I was around 9 or 10 years old. We were in the city zoo and there was this naughty chimpanzee that kept spitting on people. However, when the chimp was busy being mischievous, it didn't notice lola sneaking near the cage. Before the chimp knew it, lola poked its butt using her umbrella causing it to panic and climb its tree. Hahaha! I can't help but smile whenever I remember that scene :-)
I know that lola is in a much better place now. She doesn't have to suffer anymore. No more sickness and pain. I am thankful because if it were not for her, I wouldn't have a loving father, and I wouldn't be here telling the whole world of my appreciation for her. Thank you lola. We love you.

7 comments:

terry said...

thinking of you my far away friend.

robert said...

hi rey,i'm sorry to hear that your lola passed away.nakakalungkot lang talaga when someone you hold dear in your life passed away.but we must not make our grieving days to be so long.we must move on and attend to our life.don't worry your lola just left her body.her soul is eternal,and i'm sure,she's now happy and at peace with her Maker.siguro,what you need to do now is to help your dad move on.keep him busy and let him feel that he's got family.i know it's still early to get over it,but in due time everything will be alright.
i'm not gonna ask what you happened to ryan,but maybe God has a reason for him not to be with you at that time.one,is that your family needs you,more than anyone else.another is,maybe God wants you to give your 100% to your family.and i could sense that you're a good son.
this is robert again.take care always and be strong with whatever adversities will come your way.God's Peace,my good wishes and pure feelings...OS.

Toyo said...

thank you

leone said...

Hi Rey
In my thoughts. I was very close to my Grandmother who passed away just a few years ago now and can understand how you feel. Those fond memories that you have will always keep your Grandmother alive.

Leone xx

Toyo said...

thank you leone :-)

chase said...

my condolences to you and your family..
may she rest in peace

Toyo said...

thank you :-)