23 February 2008

Recovery

I feel better now. I was sick with fever for almost a week. When I was sick I also had a zit that got infected, add to that a swollen throat, and I injured my gum while brushing. It was hell. There were times I just broke down in tears because I was all alone in my house. I didn't want to ask help from my family because I'm ashamed to ask help from them. I'm already 32, I should be the one taking care of myself whenever I'm sick. My parents aren't that young anymore, and my sisters have their own families to take care of. Fortunately, my bf (Ryan) came over and took care of me. I really needed him to be with me. It's when he arrived that I started feeling better. He cooked food for me and gave me a sponge bath. Nahiya nga ako eh ng pinunasan niya ako kasi mukha na akong losyang. Kadiri! Hehehe! I was able to release all of my frustrations and cry on him when he was here. I'm not used to getting sick. I try my best to be healthy and not get sick because it's during times when I'm ill that I feel the loneliest. I believe that any gay guy living on his own can relate to what I'm saying. Siyempre binibisita naman ako ng pamilya ko pero pagdating ng gabi na ako na lang mag-isa tapos maysakit pa, bato na siguro ako kung di ak mapamukmok.... Love you babe!


My gum still hurts, I'm gonna see a dentist next week. I lost some significant weight. I now weigh 122 lbs. My normal/fit weight is 130 lbs., but I'm just glad I'm ok. At least now, I have an excuse to binge on food. Hehehe! Pero nanghinayang ako kasi in a span of one week, lahat ng pinaghirapan ko sa pag-gigym nawala. May scar pa ako sa face because of that nasty zit na na-infect. Buti na lang magaling ako mag-apply ng concealer. Hahaha! It will take me 2-3 months to get my former body back. My body is the type that has a hard time gaining weight. Wish me luck :-)

PS

That's my recent pic. My hair is getting long. I want to have my hair cut short because long hair takes too much time to style and I often get zits because of the styling gel/clay I put on my hair. My bf likes my hair long & requested me to maintain this kind of hairstyle for the time being. Grrr!!! Gusto ko na magpagupit eh. I hate long hair :-(

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

lucky sponge!

chase / chubz said...

awww. how sweet.. ahihih..
ganda ng buhay pag may nag-aalaga.

a far away friend said...

dry your eyes mate; it's all over now my brave little soldier. I'll send you some apple pie and cream to binge on...get well soon and "good luck"

Toyo said...

anonymous, the sponge wasn't lucky at all because i haven't bathed in 2 days before my bf gave me a sponge bath. yucky no? hehehe!

yes chase/chubz, that was very sweet of him, lalo pa ako nainlove sa kanya ;-)

thanks a far away friend/terry. i know that it's you. hehehe :-)

kyle said...

papa toyo/my numero uno crush, sana tinawagan mo ako para binigyan din kita ng sponge bath with matching massage. hihihi!
i like it when you're serious in your photos. iba ang dating mo.
you look too friendly when you smile. mwahugs!

Toyo said...

no problem :-)

Anonymous said...

I hope you are okay now. Keep on posting. I like your stories (especially the one with Ryan).

jas said...

yey! finally i can drop a comment. i've been reading your blogs for sometime now. and i'm fascinated. cool blog! hahaha. ei, take care of your health ayt?

-jas-

chase / chubz said...

hindi pa naman maxado mahaba ahh..
i don't like long hair din..
those very very long hair.. na parang gurl na..
ewan ko. not sexy for guys. hehe

Jerick said...

hala... Bakit ba parang sabay tayo lagi inaatake ng sakit natin?

Kheycze said...

hi how are you, well honestly you are cute... if i dint know you that you a gay, i might fall in love with you... i can relate of what you write... being alone is not easy... im working here in qatar...34 years old... i have no change but to work overseas... i would say that you lucky because you have someone in your life... ako eto...nag hahanap... i hope that you can introduce me to your friend....