No Worries

Self-expression. My friend was hanging around in my house (my humble gym/storage room to be exact) some weeks ago and he shot some clips of me working out which he turned into this video as a gift for my blog's 1 year anniversary :-) The video is kinda dark because it was shot at night time.

direct video link http://youtube.com/watch?v=6YdwXjCgdNY

Life Goes On

I realized that it's about time that I finally moved on with my life. It would be emotionally & physically unhealthy for me to continue dwelling in the past. I recently placed an ad at a matchmaking site. I hope I'll be able to make good friends if someone answered it :-) This is one of the photos I placed in my profile. Most of the men there have photos that are shirtless so...I decided to jump on the bandwagon too. Hehe! Some of them have great fit bodies with washboard abs and chiseled chests. Kinda makes me feel a little insecure. Noticed that my blog's avatar is also shirtless nowadays? Ummm...it's because it's summer here. Mainit! It's too freaking hot. It's soo hot here in my country that this is actually what I "wear" (or not wear) going to the office, to the mall, and to the church....the church of disco. Just kidding! :-)

Decisions! Decisions!

A vid i made around november 2005. It was only now that i was able to edit it. In the video, I was having difficulties picking the clothes to a certain place I want to "come" Hehe! ;-) I hope my friends will not get upset at me anymore for not sending them video emails for quite some time :-) Click the play button to view the vid. The direct link is for full/larger mode.

direct video link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHWfZsgeJdA

Toyo Was A Catholic Schoolboy??!! :-)

I found my old high school photo while organizing my boxes of clutter. This pic brings back memories. This is a very strict Catholic school. You're not allowed to enter school premises without wearing the proper uniform and I.D. Anyway, I love wearing any type of uniform (i.e. baseball uniform, army uniform, sailor uniform, hehe!) so no problem with me. I remember the school holding first Friday masses every first Friday of the month. Sometimes my best buddy and I would pretend that we weren't feeling well so that our teachers would excuse us from attending the mass & then send us to the school clinic. The school clinic happens to be located right next to the school cafeteria. Yummy! Haha! I also remember my adviser & teacher giving a me failing grade of 70 (an F) in Homeroom class because I wasn't able to bring flowers during the Celebration of The Holy Rosary or something :-( Regardless, I hope she's still in good health and doing well. Now my web visitors will believe me that I was once a Catholic school boi :-) I have some cute classmates huh? Click the pic to enlarge it.

High School: Sophomore Year 1989-1990

Anniversaries & Coming Outs

My blog is a year old! It’s amazing how time flies. I hope people who stumble upon my web and journal are able to learn something from the entries I post here though some of them can be only trivial stuff. I’ve started blogging to find out how ready I was to finally “come out” to the public. Although it was almost 3 years ago on June 21st 2003 that I first officially came out to one of my sisters. I was sick and tired of hiding inside the closet. I realized that if my family really loves me, they would accept me for who I really am. The closet can be a sad, limited, and lonely place to be in. Human beings are designed to be a lot of things…loneliness isn’t one of them. I didn’t want to be alone in the closet anymore. So I came out. I really didn't care about what other people would say or think. My family was & is my only concern. I first told all about it to my youngest sis (I told other family members months later). It was actually funny when it (coming out) happened.

My youngest sister didn’t really make a big deal out of it. She just gave me a kiss and a hug and told me that she’s happy for me as long as I’m happy with my life. She also told me that I should stop crying during that time because I look ugly/weird whenever I cry. She even grabbed her camera phone and took a pic of me crying to prove that I look ugly whenever I cry....and she was right! :-( Hehe! She did reprimand me because it was around 3 in the morning when I told her all about it which made me ruin her beauty sleep. Her college graduation was going to take place on that same day and she wanted to look fresh & pretty in her graduation photos. Arte talaga non! Haha! Another reason, I came out that time was because I got into a serious relationship with a very special guy (A.P.) and I wanted to introduce him to my sister. I was proud to have him as my boyfriend. Although, things between him & I didn’t turn out the way I wished it would, I hope that I was able to make him happy during the 2 years and 7 months of our relationship. All I did and ever wanted to do was to love him & be a good boyfriend to him. Time flies by so quickly. I wonder what the future holds for me and the people in my life. My little sister, my confidant.