01 March 2006

Anniversaries & Coming Outs

My blog is a year old! It’s amazing how time flies. I hope people who stumble upon my web and journal are able to learn something from the entries I post here though some of them can be only trivial stuff. I’ve started blogging to find out how ready I was to finally “come out” to the public. Although it was almost 3 years ago on June 21st 2003 that I first officially came out to one of my sisters. I was sick and tired of hiding inside the closet. I realized that if my family really loves me, they would accept me for who I really am. The closet can be a sad, limited, and lonely place to be in. Human beings are designed to be a lot of things…loneliness isn’t one of them. I didn’t want to be alone in the closet anymore. So I came out. I really didn't care about what other people would say or think. My family was & is my only concern. I first told all about it to my youngest sis (I told other family members months later). It was actually funny when it (coming out) happened.

My youngest sister didn’t really make a big deal out of it. She just gave me a kiss and a hug and told me that she’s happy for me as long as I’m happy with my life. She also told me that I should stop crying during that time because I look ugly/weird whenever I cry. She even grabbed her camera phone and took a pic of me crying to prove that I look ugly whenever I cry....and she was right! :-( Hehe! She did reprimand me because it was around 3 in the morning when I told her all about it which made me ruin her beauty sleep. Her college graduation was going to take place on that same day and she wanted to look fresh & pretty in her graduation photos. Arte talaga non! Haha! Another reason, I came out that time was because I got into a serious relationship with a very special guy (A.P.) and I wanted to introduce him to my sister. I was proud to have him as my boyfriend. Although, things between him & I didn’t turn out the way I wished it would, I hope that I was able to make him happy during the 2 years and 7 months of our relationship. All I did and ever wanted to do was to love him & be a good boyfriend to him. Time flies by so quickly. I wonder what the future holds for me and the people in my life. My little sister, my confidant.

12 comments:

Kervin said...

Wow, 2 years and 7 months, pretty long. Must've have been pretty and strange all at the same time. Congrats on your blog, take care!

Ima.boi said...

i wish my experience with my own sisters were as sweet as yours... but maybe given some time it might get better... you're very lucky to have a very caring family, rey ;)

good luck in your endeavors in the future!;)

kyle said...

happy b-day to your blog. your sister is cute just like you. good looks run in your family.

Rey/Toyo said...

Hi Kervin. Yes it's a very serious/pretty/strange/unique relationship. I even proposed to him once...twice kaya lang he wasn't ready :-) I always think of the good times. Hi Ima.boi I am indeed thankful for having a loving family. I wish you well & good luck to you too. Hi Kyle. yeah, my sis is cute even if madalas kaming mag-asaran :-)

leone said...

Hey sexy one - come fly with me!! Leone xx (love always)

kyle said...

i just want to add that if you were my bf, i will never let you go.

Rey/Toyo said...

That is so sweet Kyle. Bolero ka talaga! Hi Leone, thanks for the "sexy?" remark. I'm not feeling "sexy?" these days because I haven't been working out consistently in my gym as I used to. I injured my right shoulder again. My right shoulder is weak. Thank you guys!! :-)

concerned.boi said...

sexy is not just from the muscles, its also from the person hidden underneath, hehehe... cute naman ng sister mo, pwede ba siya ligawan?... joke! hehehe... maybe you shouldn't push yourself too much with the workaouts to avoid injuring yourself. do you have a trainer helping you with proper lifting?

Rey/Toyo said...

My sis has a bf. I don't have a trainer since I already know the proper exercises & techniques. I used to go to regular gym but now I workout in my own small home gym. My right shoulder just happens to be weak and is prone to injury. I think I'm obsessed at becoming muscled.

bi.fitness.boi said...

oh well! at least i asked *wink* i should stick to guys anyways, hahaha...

i'd be so happy if i had the kind of body you have right now... actually i think malapit na ako, hehehe... i just have to work on the pectorals a little... but i think i'm satisfied with the size of my biceps because i don't want to be too muscled... just a humble astig will do, hehehe ;)

Jayson said...

I'm into reading stuff on 'Coming Out' these days because i'm going through that process...Though your friends, family and mine have different core values, both you and I are going through the same thing.. We want to make ourselves comfortable on who we are, but what goes with it is discomfort to the ones we love. We both desire to be accepted on who we are...we also want to meet our love ones where they're at...

Jayson Manx said...

I'm into reading stuff on 'Coming Out' these days because i'm going through that process...Though your friends, family and mine have different core values, both you and I are going through the same thing.. We want to make ourselves comfortable on who we are, but what goes with it is discomfort to the ones we love. We both desire to be accepted on who we are...we also want to meet our love ones where they're at...