Forbidden Fruit...

Bumped into a high school batchmate of mine recently while buying some stuff at a bookstore. He probably thought that I was bored while I was in line at the counter paying, so he approached me and whispered "Smile naman diyan" ("Spare a smile?"). Nagulat naman ako, I mean sino 'tong cute na ito, sabi ko sa sarili ko. LOL! I was surprised because I didn't recognize him at first until he formally introduced himself as a batchmate of mine during high school. He is so cute! He's taller than me. Average to semi-muscular. At least di masyado malaki tiyan. Nice smile. Nice butt. ;-)

After I finished paying, we decided to hang out for a while. My "defenses" were still up, trying to gauge whether the guy is gay or straight. After some chitchats and some food (nilibre niya ako ng chicharon and umm...vitwater. you know? try one now. lol), and exchanging of phone numbers we went our separate ways. I was bummed because I didn't get a text message from him the following day nor the day after that so I assumed that he's probably straight and was just being friendly with me until the 3rd day after our meeting, I received a very interesting sms from him.

The text message said "I like you. Care to go out?" Aaaayyyy!!!! Bigla naman humaba ang bangs ko! Hahaha! Feeling ko kasi ang pangit pangit ko. Medyo pumayat ako eh. Balik ang confidence! LOL!

I felt so darn good reading that message. I felt showered with so much love and umm...desire. Desire???!!! What the??!! Hahaha!

Since I'm already too old to play hard-to-get, I replied that I like him too. Uuuyyy!!! LOL!

34 na ako ayoko na masyado magpademure effect no! ;-)

We met at a local Starbucks. We talked quite a bit although deep inside I was asking myself, when is this guy gonna make a move? He's taking too long! Hehehe! Ang bagal! ;-)

I was starting to get bored and he seemed tense (he was already starting to babble) so I asked him if he wanted us to be in some place where we could have a little privacy. He smirked and said "Yes."

Yup something happened and it was GREAT! He was like a savage animal. Woof! Woof! LOL! Licking my body all over, which is just what I like. We're both tops, so we didn't go all-the-way. Going all-the-way is too much work anyway. LOL! He said that it was his first time with a man. I answered "late bloomer?" He pinched me and laughed. Did you enjoy your ummm...."first time?" I asked. He requested for a second round. Hahaha!

But like all good things, this one will probably not last. Before we parted ways, he confessed that he's already married (to a woman) and that for me is a dealbreaker.

Yeah, I'm also in a relationship, but at least my partner knows my "extra curricular activities." Ryan and I both do. ;-)

Got a text message from him just a few hours ago. He wanted to "meet."

I replied "you are married!"

"I like you, I'm comfortable with you, I don't know, I may even love you. What she doesn't know won't hurt her. I just want to be with you." He texted back.

What she doesn't know won't hurt her? My ex used to tell me that. I'm not going to repeat a past mistake. I still care for my ex though. He's still a friend. Hello Amboy/ex if you're reading this. Hehehe!

Anyway, I'm confused. I really like the guy. He also told me that he doesn't care if he'll play second to Ryan, he only wants me to give him a chance. I asked myself if this guy's for real or if he's just playing me? I like him. He seems genuine but my defenses are up.

This is the first time that my belief system's been challenged.

Bakit kasi masarap ang bawal? Matext back nga siya. LOL! Haha!

Donna Summer - I Feel Love .mp3

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Weeding Out

I recently weeded out some contacts from my FaceBook account. Members who requested to be connected to me but didn't even bother trying to get to know me throughout the whole time that they've been a part of my list of "friends" in FaceBook. Some of them I haven't even met in real life. I was just concerned that I might offend them if I didn't approve their "invitation" to be my FaceBook buddies which is why I added them in my list of friends. Anyway, I deleted them and I'm going to delete more. I'd rather have a few connections than a thousand. I mean, who has a thousand +++ friends in the first place? A cyberslut?! LOL! I'd understand if you're a celebrity, a fan page or an organization, but if you're not then... How can one nurture a thousand friendships? Baffling! LOL!

I also organized contacts in my phones. I deleted contacts who do not even bother replying if I sent them text messages, especially if it's a specific text message. Don't you just hate it when people do that to you? I mean, ignoring your text messages. I have 3 phone numbers. Contacts in the cheapest phone are for new acquaintances and umm..flirting. LOL! I rarely use my cheapest phone. Contacts in my Nokia Communicator are people that I've been communicating for some time now and are thinking of meeting or possibly becoming friends with in real life, it's also a business phone. Contacts in my IPhone are family & friends. I recently demoted (demoted? as in! LOL!) one contact in my IPhone and transferred it in my cheapest phone. I texted him yesterday but he didn't reply. It's a shame, I was about to ask him to meet me since we both live in the same town. Wanted him to spend a Sunday afternoon here in my house since I was so bored and all alone. It means I will not contact him anymore since his number is deleted from my IPhone. I hate mind games. He's not worth it.

Beyonce - Irreplaceable .mp3

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Encounter

The end of another long day. Just here on my terrace, trying to cool down. Yeah, my garden needs more work. Weather seems to be getting hotter & hotter as each day passes by. Summer has finally set in.
Met a guy I've been corresponding with for a long time a few days ago, with Ryan's permission of course. I do not kiss-and-tell and I respect the person's privacy so I'm not going to elaborate any further nor give any hints regarding the guy's background. As far as hot encounters are concerned, I give the guy an A rating! After all, the guy knows how to lick. Whew! He licked me all over. Hehehe! He wanted me to be his top but I do not go all-the-way during a first meeting. Maybe in the future. Whether I see him again or not depends on my man's permission. The guy and I still text each other. He's a very nice and kind young man. Now, who's next? LOL! Kidding! Well...meron isa pero masyado pa hard-to-get eh kaya sabi ko sa sarili ko wa'g na lang ;-) Oh well, time for me to hit the shower, the warm weather's making me feel lazy/lethargic. 'Til next time :-)

PS

Important lesson learned recently; "Never allow anyone to define how you feel about yourself."

Someone I thought was a friend judged me harshly. Anyway he's not a friend anymore, is out of my life and deleted from my Facebook. LOL! ;-)

Thanks for the comments and emails of support. Your emails made me not delete my blog.

Robbie Williams - Lazy Days .mp3

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Dare!

Yours truly is issuing a challenge to a certain someone, that if the aforementioned individual completely stops smoking, loses his gut, and becomes fit & muscular once again then I will..........propose to him and marry him in an island beach resort of his choice.

The guy has 6 months to accomplish the task. You know who you are.

By the way, no lipo nor any medical procedures, and diet pills aren't allowed. Hehe!

I am not the marrying kind so we'll see who wins this dare 6 months from now. If he loses then as Tyra Banks would say in ANTM, "Time for you to immediately pack your belongings and leave the mansion." Better shape up or get shipped out! LOL! I have to get serious working out too, my bod isn't as fit as it used to be ;-)

Sixpence None The Richer - Breathe Your Name .mp3

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Recap

Just a Recap of some of my YouTube videos.

I'm itching to make a new one.

Online

This guy's in love with you pare. LOL!

I've been a member of a gay social networking site (Guys4Men now named as Gayromeo) since late 2005. I've noticed that whenever I replace my main profile pic to a "wholesome" one like the one below, few members of the site bothered contacting or checking my profile instead of when I have a shirtless photo as my main profile pic. Sex really sells huh? ;-)

Speaking of profiles, there seems to be a lot of them in that social networking site that are either tacky or just plain idiotic. Idiotic in the way that they publish their statements and tacky in the way that they present their photos. I.E. Most are profile shots. You know? A photo wherein it's only one side of the face of the subject that's being shown, Filipinos in particular are prone to doing this, posting profile shots. Nakaside view lagi. Can't they look directly in front of the camera? What are they trying to hide?

Some are naked photos with the subject smiling at the camera. If you want your photo to be seductive and be taken seriously then you shouldn't smile while holding your dick in your pictures. LOL! There are also male pageant photos with matching sash, crown and scepter and trophy and ummm....what else umm...gift certificates. Hehe! It'll be impressive if it's a major or national male pageant or a fitness competition, but if it's just a local pageant set in a cheap, forsaken strip club, then it's nothing to brag about. There are photos that weren't even cropped before they were uploaded, and some photos are so small you'll need a magnifying glass to view them.

Then there are the narratives and profile statements, my gosh! Have any of you read some of them? Statements like; "I'm not here for sex." Yet they have shirtless pics that leave little to the imagination. Either the guy has no dinero to buy clothes or he's just a douchebag trying to show off his body. I think it's the latter. Hypocrisy. "No chubs! No effems! No oldies! No uglies! Blah! Blah! Blah!" Who the hell do they think they are, a casting director? Heaven's gift to gaydom? So conceited. Such arrogance. Then there's the "I love him I have found my one true love. Yadi yadi yada!" statements. If he has found his one true love then why the hell is he still in that site. Nobody cares about that in a social/matchmaking site. What does he want to do, make single people envy him and feel sorry for themselves for not having a partner? "No facepic! No reply!" and yet they do not have any face pics of themselves in their profiles. Geesh! It's so ridiculous. Nakakabobo no? But the most annoying members I often encounter, are the ones who ask me questions that could've already been answered if only they had bothered reading my profile. Questions like the freaking "NASL?" NASL stands for Name or Nationality, Age, Sex or Status, Location. Do they really have to ask what my sex is? I have shirtless photos with my bulge showing, aren't those enough proof? Are they in doubt that it might not be my balls and cock bulging inside my undies but a giant clit instead? Hahaha! Why is the quality of members in G4M deteriorating when it comes to character and personality, Pinoy members in particular? Now I'm beginning to realize why members from other countries do not wish to associate with Filipinos in cyberspace.

I used to love G4M. I especially used to enjoy browsing the forums.

Oh the hassles of the online world. Anyway this is just my opinion. To each their own. Kanya kanyang diskarte sa internet. The important thing is to be yourself. Pretending to be someone you're not isn't going to serve you well once you and the person you're corresponding with finally decided to meet in real life.

PS

By the way...if you're gonna upload a photo & you're aiming for a "manly" look, be mindful of the things in your background. I've seen photos wherein the subject was so serious in trying to look butch but I was taken aback because of the beanie babies and stuffed toys in his pics' background, or bec. of the floral patterns of his bed sheets, pillow cases and umm..blanket. Hehe! Be careful shooting photos in hotel rooms too, if not executed properly others might think you're a moneyboy. LOL!

 

 
Lifeline - Spandau Ballet

Pillow Talk...

The end of another long and tiring day...

all alone tonight for my man is away...

wish i have someone to make things interesting...

in this sleepy, provincial town i'm living in...

Roxette - Sleeping Single .mp3

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Renovation

Quite a busy atmosphere on my part of the world. Our main office is undergoing major renovation. It was damaged by the flood brought about by the typhoon that hit the country last September.

My father decided to elevate and remodel while it's still dry season. He's adding a second floor. Kakatrauma yung bagyong Ondoy last year.

Speaking of office work, I'm behind my bookkeeping duties and year-end reports. Oh no! LOL! It's tiring looking at numbers all day long. Naduduling na ako kakatingin at kakabalance ng numbers.

I'll be alone all weekend. The cat will be away...so...should the mouse play?
Nah! I don't know any prospective, single "PLU" here in Bulacan. There's this one guy I find interesting. Had a chat with him in PlanetRomeo. He happens to be a relative of one of our business clients. Never met him in person but he said he already saw me while I was driving around town and while I was also standing outside our main office. Small world. Maliit lang naman ang Bocaue. Maybe he and I can be friends. Depends on his character and attitude. Ayoko ng maarte and pangit ugali. Ayoko din ng masyado maporma manamit. Simple lang gusto ko. I'll contact him probably next weekend and see what happens next. Depende sa mood ko. Minsan kasi tinatamad na ako lumabas ng house. Gusto ko na lang magpahinga sa bahay pag weekend.

Madness - Our House .mp3

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Hangover

Happy New Year!

Holiday season is over :-(

I'm still hung-over from all the food bingeing. LOL!

Time to get back in-shape.

Malungkot ako kasi it's back to reality come Monday. Boohuhu! Back to work. Oh no! Kawawa naman ako. Boohuhu! I don't wanna work! LOL!

It's 2010. My goodness! New year. New life. New hopes. New opportunities. Umm...new men too? I'd like that. LOL! Kidding! Hehehe!

It's so boring here in Bulacan. Boring night. Where are the cute PLUs?

 

 
Ameerah - Sound of Missing You

Season's Greetings!

Season's greetings everyone :-)

May all of us have a wonderful and meaningful holiday season.

It's been a tough year for a lot of people here in the Philippines, but it's going to take more than typhoons to crush the spirit of the Filipinos. Tuloy pa rin ang Pasko. Everybody's still excited for Christmas, and looking forward to a much better year ahead.
Now, back to "more important" matters. LOL! I just want to say to a certain "someone" that all this Santa's little helper wants for Christmas is a cute petpet boylet love slave! Yehey! LOL! Someone discreet, and will obey all of my orders! Hahaha! Ang taas taas naman kasi ng standards niya eh. Wala tuloy pumapasa. Arte! Maski hipon pwede na rin, pagsusuotin ko na lang ng maskara. Haha! ;-) Please allow me babe! I've been a very good boy this year. Really...I am a good boy. Believe me. Maniwala naman kayo. Believe in me as I believe in you. Naks! LOL! ;-p

Sheena Easton - It's Christmas All Over The World .mp3

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Reversal...

The end of yet another long day. I need a cold shower. Done with the Christmas shopping. Looking forward to a nice long holiday next week. Looking forward for some fun along the way too. Checked my G4M/PRomeo account and an interesting message caught my eye. It's from a funbud I had 3 years ago which I am going to hide under the name, Miguel. I was healing a broken heart back in the early part of 2006. I became very active in G4M in order to forget my ex, move on and to just mainly have fun for a change. Dated and played with more than a dozen men in a span of a month. That's how much I wanted to forget.

Miguel, a handsome, tall, athletic, and little older than me "chinoy" (Chinese/Filipino) was the most frequent guy I had fun with, but after several "meetings", he said that wanted us to be more than mere friends-with-benefits. He wanted to start a relationship with me. I asked him if he was really single, because I had a gut feeling that he might not be. There were telltale signs. Signs like he didn't want to give me his home phone number, he's very cautious whenever we met, and we never did our thing in his place though he said that he lives alone. It's always in a hotel. Naging suki na kami ng Shangri that time. He then admitted that he's already in a relationship with someone else, which for me is the deal breaker. I just can't. I don't want to be the "other man" in a relationship. The "other man" always ends up in tears. He said that he could make it work. In my mind I wanted to tell him; "Are you insane?! I've just recently ended a relationship." I just smiled instead, gave him a kiss, left the hotel and drove home... Miguel wants to meet this weekend. He said that he's single and is curious if he and I could give it another try. I politely explained that I'm already in a relationship. However if he's still persistent, maybe he could be my "other guy." What a reversal huh? Kidding. I'm afraid of karma. I'm still thinking whether to meet him or not... I really need a cold shower... Men...

Boy George - The Crying Game .mp3

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Toyo Was A Catholic Schoolboy??!! Part 2

Someone asked me to post another high school photo of myself. I don't know why? Strange request. Still granted though. I don't have a lot of high school pics. Cameras were boring back then and we used film. It's a hassle to bring one. Anyway, here's my class photo.

Yup! I was once a Catholic schoolboy. LOL! I'm imagining what my other batchmates would think or say if they discovered my blog. Oh no! Haha! It doesn't matter. I don't plan to attend any more reunions in the future. I'll be old by then. ;-p

Look at that hair. LOL! I wonder how many cans of hair spray I had consumed during those years. Ilang Aquanet at tancho gel kaya naubus ko? Aquanet?! Tancho Gel?! LOL! Hay naku! Pag nabasa ito ng mga madre, baka tanggalin ako sa mga alumni ng school nila, pero tuloy pa rin ang buhay ko. Blah! Haha!

Hi! :-)

Just wanted to say "Hi!" :-) Took this photo while in the locker room of a local gym that I checked out earlier. The gym was ok, but I've realized that I've been working out for years alone here in my home gym that I'm not used to working out with other people around me anymore. I get conscious of other people staring at me.

Yeah, the iPhone's camera isn't that great. So does its battery life. I should have brought my other phone instead. It's a fashionable phone but there are other phones that are much better. What else am I gonna talk about? There's this kid flirting with me that I find cute. He's only 24 though. Should I? Gawin kong petpet boylet... Hmmm.... Kidding! ;-)

 

 
Human Nature - Michael Jackson

9 to 5

My new office is finally finished and ready to be occupied.

I'd like to thank Ryan for helping me in designing and decorating it on a very tight budget. Major thanks to my father too who happens to be my boss. Hehehe :-)

It's nice to have an office of my own although I still spend most of my working time in our main office, which at present is undergoing renovation. The family biz deals with printing and manufacturing.

All I need now is a handsome sexytary. Oops! Secretary I mean. Hahaha!

Dolly Parton - Working Nine To Five .mp3

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Stubborn...

Met this guy three years ago. I miss him.

I wonder where he is now and when he will return.

I miss his cheekbones. His biceps.

I miss hugging the stocky-muscular frame.

I'm, beginning to lose hope. Why does he have to be so stubborn? Why doesn't he quit smoking? Why doesn't he quit loving Krispy Kremes? Why doesn't he accompany me while working out in the gym? May gym na nga ako sa bahay. Isang tumbling lang ang layo ng gym ko sa mga kwarto dito sa bahay ko tinatamad pa rin ang lolo niyo. Boohuhu! Gusto ko ganito katawan niya ulit. Grrr!!!! Why do you have to be so stubborn babe?! Darn it! Sabunutan kita eh. ;-p Fortunately for him, he has this trick he does with his mouth whenever he "plays" with my "tool" that drives me insane in bed. Sex is power. Haha! Napapamura ako. Galing eh. LOL!

This and That...

Rise and shine! This is what I look like after waking up. See? You wouldn't like me in the morning. LOL!

Oh what to talk about? Umm...yesterday was All Soul's Day here in the Philippines. It's a major holiday in which Filipinos commemorate loved ones who had already passed away.

Spent the afternoon in Krus sa Wawa cemetery, lit a candle, and prayed for my family members who had already moved on to a much better place. Before I went home I got a text message from a Planetromeo/G4M member asking if I could meet up with him since he's also visiting his relatives in Krus sa Wawa. We met at the chapel. It was a very short meeting. Five minutes of chit chats and then we parted ways. I was in a hurry. I rarely find time to meet people that I'm corresponding with online so I'm glad that the guy didn't turn out to be a jerk or a joke. He seems nice.

There are several men I've been corresponding with that I've been meaning to meet. Problem is, some of them have this impression that I'm a player or something. I am not. It's my fault. It's probably because I've posted naughty photos & videos of myself in the past, and that I talk about sex here in my blog. I very rarely play around with other men. I am wary of playing around because gay men have a tendecy to kiss-and-tell. I don't want to have a bad reputation, like I'm some guy you can easily get into bed with or someone who plays with other people's hearts & emotions. Sometimes I regret being too open here in my blog. Maybe I should delete my blog and be discreet again.

The Cardigans - Rise & Shine .mp3

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Infatuation 2009

It's that time of the year again in which I talk about the men I'm obsessing and would never have. Hahaha! It's a such lazy Sunday afternoon and I've got nothing else to rant about. So boring here in the province :-) If a look-a-like of any of these hunky hunky men happens to flirt with me, then it's definitely game on and trousers off. I'm crossing my fingers. LOL!

5th on the list is Marco. I already had a crush on him when he was still a member of a boyband but when I saw his indie movies in which he did frontal nudity scenes, I was like yum yum yum! What a "package!" Ang laki! Nahalatang size queen tuloy. 6 inches pataas lang dapat. LOL! Kidding. It's all in the performance...kuno ;-) 4th spot goes to Ryan. First saw him in the HBO vampire series True Blood. The guy has an amazing body & abs and such a cute face. I'd definitely want a bite of him. 3rd place is Aljur. He's fit. He's cute and he's "moreno" (bronze/brown skin). I find moreno men very sexy. Hindi din siya mukhang maarte nor mayabang unlike other matinee idols here in the Philippines. 2nd runner up goes to Akihiro, the Japanese/Brazilian model. I mean, who wouldn't love that face? Love you Aki! But not as much as I looooooove Ricky. A hot daddy, singer, dancer and philanthropist. Love him. I've been obsessing about Ricky for years. Hahaha! Dream on Toyo. Dream on! Next week, mga crush ko naman sa G4M/PlanetRomeo and Facebook. Hehe! Kidding! :-) 

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Youth...

Time moves so fast. The newest & youngest member (my niece/Sachi) of my family recently celebrated her 1st birthday. My goodness, by the time she turns 18 I'll be 52. Oh no!!!! I'd better not skip using my moisturizer. Hahaha! Dapat todo effort every night ang pag apply ng moisturizer to maintain a beautiful skin...na walang blemishes. LOL! I don't want to grow old. It's too hard. :-( I can't believe my little sis, the person who I used to tease and annoy is now a mom.

so young.... life is just beginning for her...

Compensations

I "celebrated" my birthday last 25th of September. Actually, I didn't really celebrate because I was sick. I just spent it alone here in my house. Fever, cough and cold and all :-(

Ryan was away so I was a little annoyed at him at that time. Hmp!

So he gave me these presents to compensate for his lack of presence during my birthday ;-p

Forgiveness has a price....LOL!

34. Oh my!! Shhh...if anyone asks, tell them I'm only 29 ok? Hehe! :-)

Waaah!

Kainis! Waah! My laptop crashed corrupting one of my excel files. Even the backup file in my usb drive got corrupted because it was still inserted to my laptop when it crashed. I have to re-audit the entire month of September and these aren't the only receipts and papers I have to record. There's a box of them in the filing cabinet waiting for moi! Boohuhu! :-(

Auditing & bookkeeping = painfully boring! Kaasar!!!!

Anyway, I'm just gonna close my eyes and think of my....brand new crush! Yehey!! He's sooo cute. Haha! Now I feel better. Magpaligaw kaya ako sa kanya. Gusto daw niya umakyat ng ligaw eh? Umakyat?! Very Bulakenyo, very Tagalog. Haha! Sabi ko ok lang basta 'wag niya kalimutan magdala ng flowers & chocolates maski Serg's chocolates pwede na. LOL! ;-p